I am a broken man. I have three daughters who despise me. I’ve got a battered ex-wife, hospitalized by my hand. I’ve been incarcerated. I’ve been kicked out of rehab. I continually hallucinate my dead brother. All of this is who I have become because of alcoholism.

I am from St. Luise. My name is Nick and I have been an alcoholic since high school. It’s gotten progressively worse over the past twenty years and destroyed everything I held dear.

I am currently 90 days sober, but every day is harder than the last. I’ve been feeling like I am going to fall off the wagon any day now. But I am so close to getting my family back, I can’t afford to mess up now.

I’m not sure if this will help, but my therapist figured that writing this blog will keep me from going to bars. If I’m too busy spending my time writing about everything I’ve done wrong, then I won’t fall back into my old habits.

I’ve never been much of a writer either, but maybe my raw honesty will shine through and give you all something worth reading.

My objective is to tell you about my life leading up to and dealing with my alcoholism. I will also chronicle the many months it took me to reach sobriety. I will explain how I got to where I am and where I want to go from here.

I know that I am not alone. I can’t be the only one dealing with these issues. So if you are dealing with alcoholism, hopefully, my words, my story, can give you some hope. Maybe my story can save lives and reunite families. That may be a little far-fetched, but I think it’s about time that I do some good.

Thanks for reading.